★Starstruck★

Date: Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Posted at: 9:39 AM

Morning my friends!

It's coming to the 3rd week of Ramadhan. If you're working shift, time really fliiiieeeesssss. Alhamdulillah, I was able to adapt to fasting month while working cause this is my very first time fasting in a working environment. :)

This year, I only made 1 baju kurung. Yes, 1!! But not enough lor. Haha. I'm still finding the right time to drop by to Little India to get a cheap cheap good good punjabi. It's been ageees since I last wore that. And, I thought of wearing it this year instead of the normal baju kurung. Hehe. Eve of Raya, I'm working NIGHT SHIT, people. How sad... But whatever it is, let's say I just look forward to the double pay and celebrating it with friends inside counter, singing out loud, interacting with passengers, eating kuih raya, ok what else. haha. see, there's so many things that I can do within that 10hours of work even though it's a bit draggggyy. Aiyah~ Work is work. :( Thank god, morning of Hari Raya, we are on nights off. At least we can still celebrate it with our family members! :D 1 month of celebration right friends? Haha. I still have the next 2 weeks to jalan-jalan (Duit raya pls!) with my family and not forgetting, friends. :) Yes, I've already planned my raya outing with my friends. 25th, 26th and insya-allah, 29th. Poly friends, Close friends and working colleagues. Yay! I sooooo can't wait for all that 3 outings ok people! *wide smile*

Enough about raya.

Let's talk about something else. Something important that I need to touch on. Important to me, but not to others.

As some of you know, I'm no loongeer with 'him'. His decision was rather a sudden one and that few days, I was totally in a depression mode. I kept on thinking, why why why. What went wrong in the relationship? If there's a will, there's a way. We can come up with a few ways to solve the problem, but to him, ending the relationship was the best way. And adding to that, I'm not afraid to admit that I'm also at fault too. People are given 3 chances in their lives. However, he decide not to even give me that 2nd chance. I really REGRET for my wrongs but to him, once I treat him like fool, he would just leave me. Yes, TOTALLY LEAVE me. People tend to make mistakes. Without mistakes, you won't ever get to learn anything. Haiz. That's why I'm having that love hate feeling. I can't deny that I still love him and I miss him. And at the same time, I hate him. I'm really ANGRY with him. I didn't even have the opportunity to meet him to talk on this. It's so obvious that he's running away from me. Even someone said to me, he's enjoying his life. If he says that he truly loooveees me, he would be the one finding me high and low. But nope. It turn out the other way round. I'm the one who had been messaging and bugging him and asking him to think again about his decision. So what does that all means? :(

My dear, if you don't wana get committed, please don't get into a relationship yet. Enjoy as much as you can being a single person. Dah habis enjoy, dah fikir nak kawin, then only find a gf which leads to fiancee and finally your lovely wife. I thought this would be my last relationship, but it seems that it's not. My Mr Right Guy is not there yet. I might not know, maybe the one for me may be right in front of me but I just don't realise. Time will tell.

Err, enough of emo emo ok Liana.

I decide not to think about it anymore. The more I think of it, the more I will get angry!

So, I've already move on with my life and will enjoy my singlehood life until I decide to be in a relationship AGAIN. :)

Now, I feel much more better after expressing everything in my blog. Phew~

Be back when I feel like updating!
:)